So I’ve been wallowing in procrastination and laziness and whining about how I enjoy writing, have overflowing ideas, buy books on writing, and love to read about tropes and cliches, but I never actually write anything.
I began to outline my novel.
It’s scary, but the fun I always knew I would have is there. I’m actually tackling this beast. I can’t wait to write the scenes I’m outlining. What got me started? Ryan bought me Scrivener for my birthday, a writing program. Think if it as Photoshop for writers. It really has proven to be an invaluable tool. I can’t imagine myself using Word in place of it. It would have become a large mess very quickly if not for Scrivener. Plus, Ryan showing his support and getting this for me was the final push I needed to start this project.
And no, this isn’t going to be something I’m going to get bored of after a while. I am going to write this book. I’ve had it in my head for years and always planned to write it. Now I finally am.
I’m not going to blog about it much though, I suspect. Writing is a personal craft to me. As confident as I am, I am incredibly self-conscious about this story. I hate that I am, but it’s my baby. It’s been a part of me for so long that any criticism of it would be criticism of myself. Every movie I see, book I read, song I hear…it all gets related back to this story and the characters. It’s in its infant stage and can’t be exposed to the world until it and and my confidence about it beefs up. Once it is turning into a real book I can begin to separate myself from it and have it be discussed, critiqued, and edited as it should be.
So far I have 14 “chapters” that include 67 “scenes.” I’m in the processes of writing every scene or event I know takes place. As I do so I’m either naturally filling in the gaps or brainstorming what direction to go. After this, the next step is to connect the dots and expand on the scenes. Meanwhile characters are fleshing out and plot elements are coming to life in much more clarity.
This is a big project for me and really exciting. It’s also daunting. Sooner than later I’m going have mood swings of thinking it’s going well and then have low points of thinking I’m the worst writer ever. The good news is that all first drafts are shit no matter what.
So here’s to writing.